{April 30, 2011}   GO ahead

See I am ready.
I have made my mistakes and now I am faced with the consequences.
I was in love once,I thought I was. But then it ended suddenly, without warning.
I was shocked. I honestly spent the first two days not feeling anything but after those two days it hit me that it was actually over. Now I was emotionally disconnected and thought that maybe there was a chance I could get this guy back.i was so wrong but I had to figure this out after making a complete idiot of myself.

Under the advisings of my single best friends who had NEVER been in a situation remotely similar to the one i was in,I persued this guy. I told him how I would never be happy and how he meant the world to me.
Bear in mind all these were lies. He could tell.i am not a very good liar. I couldn’t help but laugh while I said all this stuff as it sounded ridicilous but I had to pretend to cry at the same time. It was hard and I managed to fool him for a few minutes. But then he started comforting me and I couldn’t help it and bust into tears of laughter.
He left soon afterward.
I was a bit sad that it enede this way but then I have realised someting asthey days have slowly rolled by. I might have not tackled that issue appropriately. I made a mistake. But that’s life. I may havenot won that fight,I failed to win him back.Life is about getting back up again and I am happy to say I have gotten back up. So go ahead Miss Cupid(Cupid can only be a woman as women are romantic,right?),I am now ready to see the way to my next Prince.
Thank you for the one you sent before. We had our good times,laughs and fights. I wish we could have stuck it out as I really liked my Prince but I guess he wasn’t the correct one. So now I am waiting, I have given you the go ahead!


Next time you’re on an elevator and feel alittle bored, liven up the moment with some of these insightful ideas. Guaranteed to make heads turn or your money back.

1.When there’s only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn’t you.
2.Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
3.Call the Psychic Hotline from your cell phone and ask if they know what floor you’re on.
4.Swat at flies that don’t exist.
5.Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering, “Shut up, all of you, just shut up!”
6.Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside, ask, “Got enough air in there?”
7.Lay down a Twister mat and ask people if they’d like to play.
8.Leave a box in the corner, and when someone gets on, ask them if they hear something ticking.
9.Ask if you can push the button for other people, but push the wrong ones.
10.Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.
11.Stand silently and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.
12.Stare, grinning at another passenger for a while, and then announce, “I have new socks on.”
13.Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers, “This is my personal space!”
14.Fart loudly then exclaim “Was that you. There’s no way I could do that one because unfortately mine don’t come out loud.”
15.Before the elevator door opens shout “DING” and then laugh and say “beat you again Mr Elevator.”
16.Stand really close to someone, sniffing them occasionally.
17.Hire a labrador, wear sunglasses and repeatedly walk into the walls whilst pretending to not hear the other passenger’s direction.
18.Drop a pen and wait until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream, “that’s mine!”
19.Hold the doors open and say you’re waiting for your friend. After a while, let the doors close and say, “Hi Greg. How’s your day been?”
20.Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce in horror, “You’re one of THEM!” and back away slowly

{April 11, 2011}  

Games we play
He just doesn’t get it.
For some weird reason this guy thinks that I do not have a life and all I think about is him.AAaargh!!It’s so frustrating.
I mean look just because you broke up with me does not mean I have to have a vengeful vendetta against you. When I say we are cool I mean it. You do not need to read too much into that.
Just because I choose to remain single after we broke up and you chose a different path does not mean I am still immersed in you and I can not sleep at night. It just means I value who I spend my time with. I value who I get to know. I do not just go with the flow. It has to feel right first.
Just because you broke up with me it does not mean that we cannot be friends and just hang out. I believe once people have been a couple, they will always be friends if it was true and if they are both civilized and mature people (most people are not the second). If you find yourself unable to have a decent conversation on the world and other things then there is something still lingering about the two of you. You still feel a little something about each other and you need to fix that. Otherwise you should be able to have a good time without kissing and even introduce each other to your new partners as long as it is done out of friendship not spite.
Some people abuse this friendship clause though. They are some aspects you should not disclose to the other. Like how you met, if it implies you cheated and how they are a better kisser than the other. That’s just down right nasty!!! Funny enough, not only teenagers do it but also those adults that are meant to be more mature and wise.
Just because I am happy does not mean that I am just acting that way for the benefit of those around me. Hey, I am allowed to be happy and it is your problem if you find that bothers you because of your own insecurities.
The most painful being, just because I don’t say it or act it does not mean I do not miss you. There could be a hundred things holding you back from saying these words the greatest being that you are afraid of the rejection. Life is therefore so complicated.
Complicated…..No matter how old you are. Matters of the Heart are always a hustle. But they are usually the reason for the many good memories we have. ‘So maybe it aint all bad”. What do you think?

et cetera